So as the new year comes I look back at this year. I finished high school, got a job, lost a job and started university. I played a lot of cards with friends, did some embarrassing things and learned some new things about myself. I delved further into math to try and discover what it truly is, and I learned the perils of having no privacy due to having a roommate.

I made friends, went to parties and got pathetically drunk. I then moped and didn't really drink since. I lost contact with a lot of friends, and those who were once close now seem farther away.

I discovered that not everyone likes to judge others, and yet a lot of people seem to enjoy it. I gave up on trying to keep up societal niceties and ran outside without a coat barefoot.

I had a fair few crushes and despised myself for not being able to make friends without being attracted to them. I got closure on the first relationship I ever tried to really be in and it turned out that the girl didn't know if she even liked me or not.

Despite this I managed to pull off an 80% average in my first term and realized how much I still love mathematics despite how much I've lost my love for many other things. I'm still trying hard to reawaken my love for video games dammit!

I continued to question myself and found that if I lose all my friends I will get very depressed and I could see now why I've been building up a vast network of them, even if we aren't all that close.

I went out for dinner with my parents, realized how much I like my siblings despite all of our differences and quirks. Continued to dislike one of my aunts and my grandmother as I kept looking at their actions logically.

What do I want from the next year? I want to find a good co-op job that offers lots of experiences that I can use to find even better jobs. I want to do even better my second term than I did in my first, want to get our club office back from those people who took it away in the name of fairness, and find someone who I can be close to and who can be close to me, share in each others lives and maybe have a little fun with each other here and there. I want someone who I can be open to, who cares about me, and I truly want to care about them, not just be attracted to them. I want this ever elusive concept of love even though I don't think it exists.

I wish you all a very happy new year.